My dog and my daughter cured me of my OCD tendencies toward perfection and neatness. I could not love my wonderful German Shepard Shasta more than the disorder she brought to the yard. I could not love her less for all the food she found a way to pilfer. She was a wonderful friend and the best therapy ever for intolerance of disorder.
My daughter as an infant ran the house in her own way. She touched everything, moved everything, was everywhere and I found no reason to exclude her from anything other than things that would harm her. I miss the connection that I had with her as she slept on my chest as a tiny baby.
With Shasta gone and my daughter apart from me I am left to confront the disorder that is me. I am amused and horrified all at once. But mostly, I am alone. Through choices both conscious and unconscious I am a loner. I don’t usually offend people right off, it usually takes me a few days… Kidding. It is the feeling of being an outsider that I am trying to sketch for you here.
My annoyance at myself for all the great Photoshop composite ideas, photo concepts and amazing prints that I have started to work on and then abandoned for one perfectly logical reason or another can be suffocating. However I did get in the studio last week and do so good work and I actually connected with one person.
He was a person that I had attended a photo seminar in the US with. I liked his photography and him as well. He asked me what the theme of a photo that I am calling Nightlife was. I posted the answer to that question on my FB page. But as I thought about what I had written it occurred to me that what is at first obvious in a photograph is often very far away from what was actually intended. It is often much more interesting what happens in the viewers mind as they decide what is happening in the photograph. I find for then first time in my life I am producing work that makes people ask questions about what is going on in a photograph. I hope to continue that.
So I guess the disorder that is me has some central theme and that is to ask you to ask some of the same questions I do. But you have to figure out what the questions are and also if they are worth asking or even interesting. And then you have to answer them for yourself!
I think the next theme I am going to start and abandon is the concept of being outside, or on the edge of society. I have a lot of photos to make!
Thanks for reading this!
I am reading, and almost completed “The Icarus Deception” by Seth Godin.
Model : Crystal Brooke
Photographer : Trevor Lawrence/irelephantphoto.com
Just a quick note about this photo. We took this shot at the end of our session around 2:00 am just outside the studio. We were photographing a warrior princess theme inside. As we set the shot up, something went off inside my head. A kind of distant memory started to come back to me. It wasn’t until I walked around the side of the building and framed this shot that I realized that this image had been in my mind for several years. I just hadn’t had the opportunity to put it all together till now.
I guess that you could say that I smoked one too many before writing that last sentence. But, it is the truth. Just so startling when your work finds you. I’ll try to be a bit more available in the future!
MUSIC: Lana Del Rey Announces Release Date for “Ultraviolence” Album
It looks like a new Lana Del Rey album is right around the corner! The information kind of slipped out when the Lana was casually talking to a fan while seemingly not aware a video camera was recording.
New album from Lana Del Rey announced!
I recently started running an ad on a local internet things-for-sale website. It’s the first time I’ve actually advertised myself as photographer/videographer for hire. There has not been a ton of response so far, but at least I’m getting out there. I’ve decided to make the leap from building my portfolio to trying to earn a few dollars to cover some of my expenses. I won’t bore you with my usual diatribe on the great cost of photography. I guess that I’m finally admitting to the world that I would like to earn a living in this business one day. It has always been a struggle balancing my day job against photographic work opportunities.
With all the violence being committed against the world in general and journalists in particular, it has given me pause to ask questions of myself. That is, why do they do it? Journalists covering the world frequently put themselves in harms way to pursue their craft. My heart goes out to those who have paid the ultimate price and for the families and friends that miss them and grieve for them.
But they had a deep need to tell the stories of all those that live on the other side of the planet enduring things that we cannot comprehend. I think I have a tiny bit of that in me as well. I want to tell the stories of people that want to share their lives and experiences. God bless those people for their courage.
I had someone call me out of the blue and ask me to work on a small film project with them detailing the lives of minorities in Canada. I hope that works out, I am intrigued. If you have a story to tell, I would urge you to get in touch. Thanks for your time!
New York city camouflage series by Trina Merry
Watch the video after text:
Her models meld into the grey Manhattan skyline as if they’re made of mirrors and glass.
Now body artist Trina Merry has spoken about her head-turning technique, painstakingly painting women so they blend in with New York’s landmarks, after her incredible creations made headlines around the world.
The 33-year-old shuns studios and canvases, instead letting her nude models camouflage seamlessly into the world around them.
Art imitates life: New York body painter Trina Merry’s models blend into the Manhattan Bridge (left) and Guggenheim museum (right) wearing coloured shoes and bikini bottoms. The 33-year-old began her inspiring project after moving to New York from San Francisco because she wanted to provide a ‘reflective view within the landscape’
An amazing series! NSFW
I wasn’t expecting to talk to her for a while as I had finished her edits and emailed them to her. We talked and she told me how well “nightlife” had been received in her social circle and that some other photographers were becoming interested in my work. She told me that this was no small matter and that I should be encouraged by these events. She referred to the photo as Art.
I was surprised again. That was the second time that someone had referred to my work as Art. I’m not entirely sure that it is, but it feels like things are heading in the right direction.
As we were shooting, the idea came to me and we just went outside and shot it. I took less than a dozen frames. I was a bit nervous about being out that late with her, in that end of town, with my gear and annoying drivers with my strobe. So glad we shot that scene.
I complain about the time and cost of my gear and the expense of the studio to pretty much anyone who will listen. But that phone call and that image puts all that whiny bullshit into the background where it belongs. Thank you Crystal! Thanks to the Creator for the gift of this life.
Miss Nica Stone
Photographer Trevor Lawrence
#photography @MissNicaStone @irelephant62